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Blackout

Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget

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By: Sarah Hepola
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It's such a savage thing to lose your memory, but the crazy thing is it doesn't hurt one bit. A blackout doesn't sting or stab or leave a scar when it robs you. Close your eyes and open them again. That's what a blackout feels like.

For Sarah Hepola, alcohol was 'the gasoline of all adventure'. She spent her evenings at cocktail parties and dark bars where she proudly stayed till last call. Drinking felt like freedom, part of her birthright as a strong, enlightened 21st-century woman.

But there was a price. She often blacked out, waking up with a blank space where four hours should be. Mornings became detective work on her own life. What did I say last night? How did I meet that guy?

She apologized for things she couldn't remember doing, as though she were cleaning up after an evil twin. Publicly she covered her shame with self-deprecating jokes, and her career flourished, but as the blackouts accumulated, she could no longer avoid a sinking truth. The fuel she thought she needed was draining her spirit instead.

A memoir of unblinking honesty and poignant, laugh-out-loud humor, Blackout is the story of a woman stumbling into a new kind of adventure - the sober life she never wanted. Shining a light into her blackouts, she discovers the person she buried as well as the confidence, intimacy and creativity she once believed came only from a bottle.

Her tale will resonate with anyone who has been forced to reinvent themselves or struggled in the face of necessary change. It's about giving up the thing you cherish most - but getting yourself back in return.

©2015 Sarah Hepola (P)2015 Hachette Audio
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such a great read

loved this book the narrator 's strong American accent put me off at first but got used to it !!

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Brilliant

beautifully narrated. very emotional at times. love her style. really identified with Sarah. Thanks

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This will help anyone giving up boozing

A great listen for anyone making the journey or considering sobriety.
Sarah’s open accounts of her escapades let those who have had issues with alcohol that they aren’t the only ones who have blacked out, lied and let themselves down, again and again.
She goes into a lot of detail about her relationships and her feelings around them. A good insight for men into the female mind.

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Brutally honest

A long tale. I struggled to relate to the American professional who often moves around as I’m soo not that person. But did relate to the relationships with alcohol and humans and feelings of not knowing myself. That inspired me. I did cry at the cat so sad to lose the one real constant. Sad there was no pink cloud for Sarah.

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Beautifully melancholy, what a journey . Will miss listening .. the ups and downs of sobriety obvs miles more than that .. loved it !

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good sober lit

I enjoyed it but not as much as some others. At times I zoned out a bit but for the most part I enjoyed the story x

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Brutally honest

I'm sure this wouldn't be to everyone's taste but I thought it was brutally honest, very sincere and an insightful telling into the mind of what is not the uncommon 21st century woman. Found it very easy to relate to some parts and appreciated the unique approach to a topic which is often under rug swept.
Thought the author did a brilliant job and I would really recommend it to any woman who has ever gotten a little carried away in the drinking culture of today.

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Gritty and real.

A very relatable tale. Some real cringe worthy moments (although I kind of enjoyed them) Some truly awful and scary moments. I wish I'd read this years ago! It was a great reminder of how you might sometimes feel like you're the only one to have lived through something... but that's far from true. Silky smooth narration too.

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Struggle, honesty and finding who you are

An inspirational book about struggle, loneliness alcholoism and finally finding out who she really is

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scarily familiar

fantastic book brilliantly read. Non accusatory, warm, a must read for anyone at a crossroads

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